Debauchery Cat

We were lazing in bed today and talking about JuNo and our plans for July and such. After a month of denial and almost daily anal fucking I was so incredibly horny, I lay panting and bucking my hips up just because He was idly toying with my nipples. All that pinching and twisting must have driven me completely crazy, because I told Him I want to be denied another month.

Do I want to get my orgasm first, o go another month without? I couldn't decide. I still can't. I might have made a huge mistake by asking Him to decide for me. One part of me is freaking out already. Another part is getting wet even thinking about it.

There were other options. I could have asked to be allowed to cum as much as I like. And most probably He would have agreed to it. I could have asked to go back to the previous regime. 

Those who follow me might remember it. My orgasms are tied to His. I make Him cum certain number of times, He makes me cum once. And the number of His orgasms increases by one every time I get to cum. If I accidentally slip over the edge, I must ruin and He gets two additional orgasms.

At the start of JuNo it was 5 to 1. But I wanted to participate in the challenge, so we tweaked the rules a bit. Even when I earned my orgasm, it had to be a ruin. It was somewhat scary, but so hot, I couldn't help but want it. So that was it. I slipped six times over the month. And there were days we did not have sex, so the ratio was changing really slowly. But now I have earned my long awaited orgasm and I crave it so bad. Even a ruined one. Yes, it's that bad by now. I want a ruin almost as much as I want a normal orgasm. But knowing there are just few days until July, I decided to "keep" my orgasm and get it full. That was before our talk. That means He will decide what to do with it now. To give it full, to ruin it. Or perhaps even to take it away completely. 

But that's not the end of it. He asked me, what are we going to do with that changing ratio game of ours. And in my state of delirious hornyness I asked to be allowed to earn my edges instead of orgasms. That means, I give Him seven orgasms (that's the ratio by now) and get one long sweet edging for it. Then He gets eight full, awesome, strong orgasms and I get my edging. And so on. I won't touch in between. Only if He is in the mood He *might* tease me some. Not necessarily to the edge. Just as much as He likes.

There will be one exception. I am allowed tu cum, if I do that by anal penetration only. Not that I ever managed to. But He was so very kind to indulge me with this rule. Judging by the way how this denial thing is going by now, I better learn quick. Because August might not be better at all.